Apparently it has become a Monday ritual to write a blog when I'm stuck in the Stats lab and not able to do any more homework due to the fact that my brain as shut down.
Speaking of shut down.
I think my brain has gone on vacation and forgot to tell me. Or maybe it just died. Or is on hibernation-mood. Or just simply imploded. In any case, it's not functioning at proper efficiency at the moment and my classes are getting so hard right now it's ridiculous. Normally I would find some way to deal with it and get through it. And I'm sure I will this time too... eventually. I just feel so worn down. Doesn't it seem like there aren't as many breaks during Fall semester as there are in Spring? Why is that?
Luckily I have a break that I can see right over the horizon. I am so looking forward to Thanksgiving break, not because I necessarily think I'll be able to have a break and do nothing, but to be able to get caught up on school and all other things of life. But then, on the same breath, me thinking of Thanksgiving makes me think of finals that are just around the corner, and then I just about have a panic attack. I hate finals. I hate tests period. I actually don't mind school, or even homework... but tests freak me out. I stress way too much about them, even when I tell myself not to. I have to get a blessing before almost every test I take just so I can calm down and study better.
In other words: I'm ridiculous.
Then on top of all things school I have other things I'm going to have to start thinking about. Like finishing school, and all that comes with that. Such as, figuring out how I'm going to start paying off my student loans, applying for graduation, getting a portfolio together, figuring out exactly what I need to do in order to start teaching in the Fall, doing all said things I find out that I need to do in order to start teaching in the fall, actually applying to high schools to teach at, plus all wedding plans, all things that are involved with said wedding plans, etc, etc...
*insert brain explosion here*
Sigh. This too shall pass. Hopefully I just don't pass right along with it. ;)
In other, non-murmuring, non-ungrateful, non-whiny, non-school related news. Me and Braedon went ring shopping on Saturday. And got a ring. :) It wont be done for another two weeks... but I'm really excited. I love Braedon so much. He helps keep me lifted and motivated through all my school crap and is such a support to me. With him around, life is never really that bad. :) Not to mention he still loves me despite my neurotic-ness, spasms, ticks, geekiness, breakdowns, and craziness.
What a weirdo.